My Little Obsession

These are all the different perfume strips from my shopping trip.

When I was growing up and into my early 20s, I had an obsession with perfume. I didn’t give a crap if I wore the designer label clothes. It wasn’t important to be seen in them. But I was a perfume snob. I didn’t want the cheap stuff. I wasn’t interested in wearing the designer knock-offs, either. I had Passion, Obsession, Eternity, Beverly Hills 273, Chloe, Chloe Narcisse, Gio, Aqua di Gio, Tresor, Spellbound (I would love to find this again), Escape, Calvin Klein, Beautiful, Beverly Hills Red, Anais Anais, Liz Claiborne and Poison.

Let me just say this is the incomplete list of what I owned and enjoyed. It was that little pleasure in life I afforded myself just for the joy of it.  And when I was talking with a friend, it dawned on me. Since becoming a mom, I’ve not bought myself any perfume. In fact,  I didn’t even own any. And that was sad.

It’s sad because it was just a symptom of not really giving to myself.

So, I changed that. Friday, I drove to Dillards and went perfume shopping.

I found quite a few I liked but one in particular gave me that instant ‘oh my god, I have to have this’ feeling. So, it came home with me.

Flora by Gucci gave me that little tingling feeling and I knew it was the one.

And as I was about to leave, I found one more little joy to splurge on.

I love these little sassy beauties. And kitty had to see what was going on.

Once I got home, I had to model them for kitty. Of course kitty had to get in the picture too. (Side note – taking pictures of yourself isn’t very easy. Especially with a phone camera in a room that doesn’t have the best light.)

Kitty is the real star here. She's a natural, I think.

A promise I’m making to myself – from now on, my question is ‘What does Tawnya want?’ No more putting other people’s desire ahead of mine or trying to mold myself to fit someone or make someone else comfortable. I’ll never get fully away from caring for people and taking care of others and being sensitive to their needs. That’s a part of who I am. But by asking this question, my world comes just a little bit more into balance.