Looking Forward

Last year when I gave myself goals, I was coming from a place of things to do, what I need to accomplish. Not that this is evil or wrong, but this year as I look forward, I am not creating a list from the same place. I’ve grown. I’ve matured in ways I never even considered last year. I’ve let go of this image of myself, this need for perfection and am walking in a place of love and compassion for myself and others.

Last year, I set a definite time frame for my ‘relationship status’. Not that I stated I would only be single for one year, but that I would purposefully NOT be in a relationship for at least one year. This year, I’m letting go of this. This does not mean I will now start looking for ‘the one’. Quite the opposite. It simply means I’ve let go of the thought it takes another person to make me happy and I’ve now become comfortable in my own presence. I am open to life bringing me someone or not bringing me someone. I am releasing the pressure to be ‘a couple’ and am enjoying the belief that on a higher level I am connected and a part of all living things. I also sense, at this point, the most wonderful relationships, whether romantic or friendship, are the kind that aren’t forced or chased after but develop and bloom as naturally as a flower takes root.  And once the root takes hold, it will be my pleasure and joy to water and tend and care for the tender plant of communion with another person.

So, in less flowery words – I am happy and fulfilled with who I am. I don’t reject the idea of a romantic relationship but I don’t chase after it either.

Now on to a new kind of list. 

I  honor my body and my spirit. It is my intention to listen to and heed the inner voice that leads me every day. I do this with my eating, with my physical activity, with the people I choose to spend time with, with the rest I get, with what I put my energy and focus and attention towards.

I allow myself to live in the moment. I don’t focus on what should be or what was, but on the moment as it comes and give myself fully to it. When I am with loved ones, I focus and give my full attention and presence to them.

I recognize my thoughts are the foundation for what my life is. As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he. This wisdom carries me in every situation – financial, emotional,physical, spiritual.

Maybe you noticed how I framed my intentions for this year differently than last year. I plan on re-visiting this list as often as I can. I don’t expect perfection. I let go of the fear of failure or the pride of success and allow what is to bloom fully in me to unfold as only God can.