In Search of Balance

I started this blog several years ago as an outlet – a creative, emotional outlet. It’s underlying theme and focus has been to seek balance in my life and to explore where I’m unbalanced and how to correct it.

Along the way, I’ve grown. The pressing urge to become perfect has fallen away. In it’s place is a compassion for myself and an awareness that perfection is not the goal, but continual improvement. When I am aware of being caught up in negativity, I’m pleased because the awareness signals to me I’m improving and am not trapped and held powerless by my thoughts. Life has become a practice – practice in being gracious, in being present in the moment and not trapped by the past or caught up in the future.

It frees me from being hurt by others because I realize others’ actions might affect circumstances but only I have the power to let it affect my soul. I can choose to be grateful for any lessons learned. I can choose to be still and understanding. I can choose to love or I can choose to be bitter, resentful and hate-filled. It is my choice. Knowing this is liberating. Sometimes I have to actively remind myself I have the choice, but the choice is and always has been mine.

So in search of balance, I’ve let go of the pressing goal for balance. Ironically, it’s in letting go that balance comes.