I had my coaching session with Jennifer Priest. Like an eager pupil, I was happy to tell her about my epiphany this weekend. As we discussed it, I talked about the struggles of balancing care of the children with job hunting and a freelance project or two I have. I realized in the past I had created rigid schedules only to be frustrated by them and toss the idea out the window. We talked about thinking of my day as more or less having a framework behind it – a routine – rather than specific times and rigid structure. Jennifer pointed out to me that I have struggled over the last years with being forced in a box by a man who is rigid. (more…)

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My ex thinks the time I have given him alone with the children (I’ve been generous in the evenings) means the children and I don’t have a good relationship. JUST TO BE CLEAR – I give him that time alone as a courtesy because I spend ALL DAY LONG with them without him around and I wanted him to have a chance to be with them without the tension of THE TWO OF US being in the same room together. AND because Olaf has, in the past, said and done very hurtful things TO ME AND TO LUKE I try to avoid this by spending AS LITTLE TIME AS POSSIBLE in his presence.

If he has told you this in conversations – please note it is because he doesn’t know what I do during the day with the children. He is greatly mistaken if he thinks I have no bond with the children, as he stated this evening in my conversation with him. I am their MOM and I’m a DAMN GOOD mom at that.

It was a weekend of contrasts. I had a blast with my friend Krista (@BUTTERFLEYES). We enjoyed a mellow weekend of shopping, chick flicks and karaoke. But I was also struggling with the emotional aftermath of the divorce. I faced a painful truth. I, and I alone, had to dig deep and find the strength and compassion for myself. What I needed couldn’t be found in external situations or relationships. And an amazing thing happened. I found that strength. And, in the process, introduced myself to an amazing person. (more…)

There’s nothing like a good divorce to have you questioning your sanity and bringing to light every bump, scar, wound, poison, insecurity, fear, negative emotion, pimple, flaw or twisted perspective one could have. It’s like laying on the ground after a near-fatal collision and attempting to stand up and walk away then wondering why in the hell does it hurt so bad, where is all the blood coming from and why the &*#@ is it so hard to crawl, much less walk. And then beating yourself up for not being complete and whole. In other words, it makes no friggin’ sense. (more…)

The following is a letter I wrote on the urging of my life coach, Jennifer Priest. To give me a better perspective on my situation and show me how to be compassionate to myself, she asked me to write a letter to myself as though I were giving advice to a dear friend. Here is the result. (more…)

For those wondering where I’ve been – my laptop is broken. I’m still chugging along & will be writing more shortly as soon as I can secure a new one.

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