Archive for May, 2009

Grateful

Saturday, May 23rd, 2009

I’m about to go to bed for the night. It’s been an odd week. I turned 33. Filed more papers for the divorce. A good friend had a birthday this week as well. I was taken to dinner and karaoke by my wonderful friends, Julie and Laurel. I had an AWESOME time and am grateful I have so many people who care about me.

I’m also grateful I have the assistance of life coach, Jennifer Priest. If you have questions about life coaching, want to ask me more about my experience, please feel free to leave a comment or shoot me an email. Jennifer has kept me on track with the job search and also in staying true to myself. Her nudges and questions and suggestions have made all the difference.

So, my thoughts may feel incomplete now, but thanks Jennifer. I highly recommend her services. Please check her out!

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A New Friend

Friday, May 15th, 2009

I made a new friend today. In one email, in shared pain, we connected. I can’t thank you publicly yet, but thank you. I hate you went through what you did. I know you were hurt. But sharing has given me renewed fire to continue and peace for the journey. I understand and have confirmation I am ok and doing the right thing. 

I hope someday we can meet. I would love to visit you. I hope you find happiness. You are worthy of love and joy.  The one who hurt you is shallow and miserable and self-centered. He is unaware of anything but his own importance. The sad thing is – he isn’t very important at all.

Important people, people worth having around, can see beyond themselves and into the hearts of others. The people I want around me are the ones who care about others and put the ones they love above all else.

Thank you for being my friend. We may not have met in person, but there are parts of us that are the same. Much love and happiness,

Tawnya

Weary

Thursday, May 14th, 2009

I’m keeping up with the blog even though I’m tired most of the time and shoulder-deep in a job search now. But this is a great outlet – I just have to find the right balance at this time to be respectful of my in-laws and future employers.

One sad thing about divorce (there are many) is the fact that the chance of talking with your in-laws are pretty much non-existant. I love my in-laws. Not that I say it often or if I’ve ever even told them before, but I do. My heart aches because they are great people. I care deeply for them and wish this didn’t have to end.

Paul, Jens and Dirk have been wonderful brothers-in-law to me. They are all great men and very kind to me. It breaks my heart to think I won’t see them again. Heinz and Christine are also wonderful. I love them very much. I hope that they will not hate me when this is over. I write this with tears in my eyes. I will always hold those memories of time spent with them in my heart. 

I didn’t intend to write this today, but perhaps it is for the best.

Serendipity

Wednesday, May 6th, 2009

Wikipedia – Serendipity is the effect by which one accidentally discovers something fortunate, especially while looking for something else entirely.

Almost no one in my life has known that I’ve been disassembling my marriage, except for a few folks. Going through a divorce is neither easy or painless. And regardless of the reason, or whether you think it’s the best thing to do, it hurts. My stomach constantly feels as though I’ve been attacked with a cheese grater and my shoulders are sore from sleeping on the couch.

But, on the way down this path, many good things have happened to me and have really let me know someone is looking out for me. For instance, when I really needed it most, Jennifer Priest offered me life coaching sessions. I believe our coming together has been serendipitous. She has kept me together, kept me in check and kept me sane. Her questions have kept me from settling and making stupid mistakes. She’s helped me see that I do have a lot to offer a future employer and helped me stay on track for getting my act together.

She’s definitely not the only person who has seemed to come into my life when I needed it most. So many little blessed gifts – so many acts of kindness – so much friendship and love. I’m very grateful.