I have a lot going on in my life. If you are a friend, family member or happen to have read my blog lately, you know this. I’m trying to find my place in this world. I’m trying to crawl from under a rock of a marriage that left me badly bungled. I’m trying to find my voice when it’s been stifled for a long time and heal wounds that run deep. Read more »
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Somedays I have no motivation and procrastinate like crazy. A good friend shared this video with me. Perhaps you’ll like it too.
I had my coaching session with Jennifer Priest. Like an eager pupil, I was happy to tell her about my epiphany this weekend. As we discussed it, I talked about the struggles of balancing care of the children with job hunting and a freelance project or two I have. I realized in the past I had created rigid schedules only to be frustrated by them and toss the idea out the window. We talked about thinking of my day as more or less having a framework behind it - a routine - rather than specific times and rigid structure. Jennifer pointed out to me that I have struggled over the last years with being forced in a box by a man who is rigid. Read more »
My ex thinks the time I have given him alone with the children (I’ve been generous in the evenings) means the children and I don’t have a good relationship. JUST TO BE CLEAR - I give him that time alone as a courtesy because I spend ALL DAY LONG with them without him around and I wanted him to have a chance to be with them without the tension of THE TWO OF US being in the same room together. AND because Olaf has, in the past, said and done very hurtful things TO ME AND TO LUKE I try to avoid this by spending AS LITTLE TIME AS POSSIBLE in his presence.
If he has told you this in conversations - please note it is because he doesn’t know what I do during the day with the children. He is greatly mistaken if he thinks I have no bond with the children, as he stated this evening in my conversation with him. I am their MOM and I’m a DAMN GOOD mom at that.
It was a weekend of contrasts. I had a blast with my friend Krista (@BUTTERFLEYES). We enjoyed a mellow weekend of shopping, chick flicks and karaoke. But I was also struggling with the emotional aftermath of the divorce. I faced a painful truth. I, and I alone, had to dig deep and find the strength and compassion for myself. What I needed couldn’t be found in external situations or relationships. And an amazing thing happened. I found that strength. And, in the process, introduced myself to an amazing person. Read more »
There’s nothing like a good divorce to have you questioning your sanity and bringing to light every bump, scar, wound, poison, insecurity, fear, negative emotion, pimple, flaw or twisted perspective one could have. It’s like laying on the ground after a near-fatal collision and attempting to stand up and walk away then wondering why in the hell does it hurt so bad, where is all the blood coming from and why the &*#@ is it so hard to crawl, much less walk. And then beating yourself up for not being complete and whole. In other words, it makes no friggin’ sense. Read more »
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